Yet another year is over ...
I am now Twenty Eight years old!
I don't consciously feel it yet. But I know it has happened - know it not just from the number but also because of where and how I am in life.
The Twenty Seventh year was a testimony to that.

Prominent Achievements:

1. I bought a car - not a starting, base segment car, but a decent mid segment hatchback. FINALLY!
   AND, I've paid off the loan for it, so it's completely mine now!
2. The story I wrote got published (again, finally!) - Crystal Cacophony
   So I'm one step closer to the dream ;)
3. I switched jobs. I finished exactly 3 years with my last organization, and now I'm in yet another brilliant organization with an amazing multinational team, with a bigger scope of responsibility and getting to do all that I love!
4. I went as a Guest Speaker - to a university, to speak to a bunch of  MBA grad students.

Happy Things:

1. I have learned to drive comfortably now. (Thanks to very patient friend who helped expedite this process!)
2. I wrote and blogged more over the last year - happy to be writing a lot again!
3. I tasted some amazing yummy food - ate a lot!
4. Family, as always was there anytime needed :)
5. I have good friends - and I'm blessed to have them!

Major Regrets:

1. Having to let go of a few really amazing people who were in my life. For not being able to like/ love them as much as they did me, and the imbalance was obviously not fair on any of us.
2. No international travel last year
3. I didn't stand up strong enough for myself during a case of harassment.  
4. I ate too much :/ And didn't balance it with working out enough. 

Major Lessons Learnt:

1. Life goes on.
2. No point complaining if you're not going to do something about it!
3. If I want something, really want something, I can find it by all means available to me
4. Gifts don't necessarily buy love. Neither does good food. But Food is closer.

27

That was the year when I experienced an actual flood. Saw water surround the house. We were some of the lucky ones who didn't incur heavy damage. 

That was the year when the biggest awesome things that happened to me were almost all in my control - it made me realize that being a grown-up is not so bad after all. Being single and accomplished is something I am - something I am proud of. 

27

Personal life wise - very calm. Maintained status quo. Maybe I needed that stability there while I established professionally. And now I'm ready to make things happen in this arena as well. Maybe!

Twenty Seven ...in retrospect, you've been a good year!

You've helped me dig deep into myself to find the courage, resilience, will power and positivity to march on ahead. For that, thank you :)

Look forward to how the Twenty Eight is going to be!

Yours always,

Someday's Dreamer 

Disconnected : Day 0

Technology was catching up to us.

Now, we are trying to keep up with it.

I remember back in the days of just land lines and no mobile phones, no facebook and no internet for all. We spoke and laughed with people. We did things and didn't document every second of it in Instagram. We had fun, and we were genuinely happy.

The lonely people were genuinely lonely for understandable reasons.

No with a million different ways to stay connected, we have so many ways of being lonely. Conversations and laughter have become a luxury. Texts and LOLs typed out with straight faces have taken their place. We live in an era where we cut off a live conversation with a living breathing human sitting or standing across from us to speak to one who is connected to us via strange telephonic waves that I don't even comprehend the working of.

We text and smile at posts as we ignore those around us.

Yes, it does have its advantages.

We need never get lost, but I don't know the way to my friend's place anymore. Only my GPS does.

I have my sister on speed dial, but I don't know her number by heart anymore.

No message or mail need ever be erased, but that makes everything easy to forget.

General knowledge is at an all time low - cause Google knows it anyway, and we can "Google" it.

I can track my expenses on my phone, I can track my contact lens cycle on my phone, Hell, I even track my period on it! Meaning, without them, I no longer have a track of what and when.

We can dig up any documented information on anything. We can make payments, transfer money.

We need never be bored because our smartphones with expandable memories can store a great amount of videos, games and anything one might find interesting - how comfortable are people sitting still with their thoughts anymore? I realized I wasn't preferring it much myself! Why sit idle, when you can be occupied!

We can call anybody anytime. Yes, we can keep in touch with our near dear ones even from farther and farther! But this also makes us sometimes disregard their situation then, cause it's a personal phone and it's become the norm anyway.

*Norm is the researchers' abbreviation to refer to "Normal" behavior. We have, with the widespread usage of mobile phones, made rude behavior normal.*

Facebook ...don't even get me started on that!

We don't have to strictly stick to our schedules anymore as we can always call and cancel at the last minute. Some are more polite "Can I confirm by tonight?" for tomorrow's plan, made a week ago.

We can always be connected. The possibility of which has made us more fragmented than ever. 

We wish, we celebrate, we even make love over the phones. 

We can do so much. We can.

I do. Too.

I have a fairly fancy smartphone. I have numerous apps that assist my everyday living. I claim in makes life so much easier for me. I give a lot of these apps more access to my information than the logically require to function normally. I tell myself that it's a fair trade-off, for how they help me.

The question should be, is it worth it?

I am not contesting the usefulness of smartphones. No. I accept they are extremely useful.

I am contesting their importance in our lives.

Do they have to be so essential that their absence can incapacitate us?

That's exactly what I want to find out.

Despite my philosophical approach to it all, I do depend on my phone quite a bit. I'm constantly taking pictures, even rearranging food to make it look pretty before clicking it, and texting all the time, GPS, my apps and so on. I'm not as addicted as many (my dad for instance ;) ) but I do feel the need for, rather than just want it.

So now, I have decided to DO something that many hypothesize: We should just turn off our phones and find out how it is. 

I'm going to do it, and find out what about just the idea of living without a handphone makes your friends go: "Are you, alright sweetie?" "Did something happen?" "Is someone stalking you?" and your acquaintances just simply go: "Are you crazy?"

Why does the simple act of living without a handphone seem like such an extreme decision? 

I shall switch off my phone for 15 days and find out :) And you're welcome to my answers. 

Just a girl

I’m a girl. And I’ve never considered being a girl a weakness. I’m a feminist, I know that us girls still have to fight for many things that boys/ men take completely for granted. It could be as basic as safety, or as complex as the glass ceiling. But I’ve considered myself a fighter. Who’s believed that if we fight, we can get what should be our rights.

The fight is harder in conservative countries like India, where comments like “You’re a grown girl now”, “A girl should be home before it gets dark”, or “This is not America” are common, even in a comparatively open minded household like mine – where it isn’t expected of me or my sister to follow any dress code/ where girls drinking was not seen as cringe worthy fault/ where I am encouraged to be fully independent, work for my own living and be as self sufficient as possible. 

Even in those situations, whenever those comments came up, I fought it. Or so I thought I did.

Till recently, I noticed, actually took a moment to stop and notice, some of my choices.

I wasn’t changing jobs, as it would make it easier to quit and move/ or quit and stay at home as required – after the wedding.

I was resisting looking for higher paying jobs, or even taking up extra assignments internally – to ensure my promotion, as that would mean that the guy I find/ found for me should earn that much more than me.

I didn’t pursue my Ph.D because already it’s difficult to find many men who have a masters. A doctrate would make it almost impossible.

I wasn’t buying a car because A. It’s a huge investment, money that could be used for the wedding! B. I don’t know where I would be settling. C. Families don’t prefer women who have a debt (loan), so that would fall upon my father to close it before the wedding and finally D. Having a car would mean the guy, once again, would have to have a better car. Or at least a car of equal standard.

Sounds crazy?

Or a bit too familiar?

I’m guessing that it’s probably the latter for quite a few single women out there. Unfortunately.

I’ve heard serious stories about marriages where the lady was doing better professionally – and consequently, had to suffer domestically. The fact that they earned and contributed more monetarily in the house hold did nothing to reduce the pressure of doing/ supervising the domestic work as well, and not to mention dealing with the bruised ego of the husband. This is the case even when both parties are earning almost equally. Don’t get me started on when the baby arrives!

I’m also hearing a lot from older women who say “I want a stay at home wife for my son. I want him to be properly taken care of” Why? Are the men not supposed to take care of the wives through any way other than by cash and kind?

All these later points, I repeat quite frequently, and vehemently – especially to my colleagues. Working in a largely male dominated company, I’ve heard much too many times, even from those junior to me, that “You’ll probably quit when you get married right?” I refuse of course. But I’m never completely sure about that.

It is still expected that the lady should be able to have suspended life plans, should live by the life plans of the guy or at least more by his than hers.

I fought it. But not completely apparently.

But, I’m 27 now, been an adult long enough to know that I’m not ready for some compromises anymore. My life plans will not be put on hold for a stranger any longer.

I’m getting a new car tomorrow.

I’ll find a better job soon.

I’m getting published shortly.

I am my own person.

I’m not just a girl anymore.

I’m A girl.

Yesterday...

Time..habits...

Weird things those. They change so many things.

Yesterday, I heard something.
Logically, I should have...could have rather, felt bad, or sad about it.
I was just pleasantly happy for him.
Not in the defensive self protective, opposite acting out kinda way, but genuinely happy that he found someone for himself. I'd believed that I might feel bad about it. Expected so even. But time, wonderful thing that it is, has made it possible that it didn't matter to me at all.
He is no more an emotion. He is just a memory. A memory of interesting emotions once felt. Not even special enough to fondly remember much.
He is just somebody who once was.
(It is a possibility that we knew we were not right for each other, and hence I never actually registered him that much. Yet, I believed that I had cared enough to care. But no more. Which is a pleasant relief. :) )

Yesterday, my grandma slashed her hand. Early in the morning, as she opened the gate for me to leave for work.
At first it didn't bleed, but in 3 seconds, it was a blood bathed finger. In her right hand, that too! I quickly got the first aid kit, and left after she assured me that it wasn't deep and that it didn't hurt much, and with my sister in charge.
I get home in the evening to see that my grandmother, obsessive cleaner that she is, had done everything she would do on a normal day, and was soberly sitting with a very swollen ring finger. Especially with the blood still oozing a bit. Considering she's diabetic, and it had been more than 12 hours since she cut herself... Not a nice scene.
Queasy around blood, I've always been.
Yet weirdly, first aid is almost an instinct for me.
Not that I know exactly what to do all the time. But I do know how to get it done, and the will/ patience/ gut to stick around till it's done. No matter how much blood there is. No matter how queasy it makes me.
I guess it has a lot to do with all the time I've spent in the hospital as a kid. I remember at least 2 whole summers there.
It's strange that I hate the smell of hospitals... still can't get a shot/ get blood drawn alone, without my dad or someone close standing close to me, and letting me squeeze their hand, as my eyes stay firmly tightly shut. Still will not go to a hospital unless it's terribly serious, and I have no strength to stop.. no, fight the people (plural - requirement. Trust me) who are dragging me there.
And yet, I feel safest in a hospital. A place where people in white coats can make the worst news seem like something that can be gotten through, something that can be overcome. White coats with the power to give hope to the hopeless, and time to the dying. Sometimes, rarely, even life to the dying.
Yesterday, I spoke to my cousin who is a doctor, got my instructions, and when I was done with her finger 2 hours later (repeated ice compresses and cotton presses and whatnot) the swelling had completely gone away, and the bleeding stopped. As I wrapped it up for the night, I felt a feeling of accomplishment, more than I would do after 3 solid days of work!

Habits... ingrained over time, almost made as instinctive as a reaction
Time ... changing what once used to be habit, to mere memories

Strange things those.
Strange wonderful things.

Primal Insticts: The Protective

Yesterday, a friend of mine...a male friend of mine was forcibly involved in an argumentative settlement/ meeting. He was taken as his department representative, and had to listen to being blamed for the better part of 2 hours, for no fault of his. The blaming apparently was quite strong and derogatory as well.

He came out of the meeting visibly furious. Since we all go back in the same office bus, another friend of ours and I were still waiting for him inside, rather than in the bus.

He stormed to his workstation, and in a moment of uncontrollable rage, flung a huge box file on his desk. Papers were flying and he just stood there seething for a moment. Not usually used to this kind of blatant rage, I stood shocked, and stopped in my tracks quite farther away from him than I would have usually gone.

Normally, I think (since I've never actually been in a similar situation before. (I've occasionally been the one flinging things ;) )) I wouldn't have gone closer...stayed at a safe distance and quietly watched and waited for him to calm down. That feels like the response that I would have expected from me.

Yesterday, I went over, helped him pick up the strewn papers and then walked with him to the bus. We (The other friend and I) even sat together, and made him calm down and laugh. All the while, at least in the beginning, I was wondering why I had this strange urge to hug him and soothe him.

He is a work friend, married and to clarify, I have no romantic feelings towards him. However, he is a really good friend of mine.

I have heard of friends who have been relationships that involved violence, and friends of friends who have been physically abused as well. I have always thought that it was crazy and/ or stupid of them to stay in them. I never understood why any rational/ sane person would willingly even stay in touch with a person who is violent, or worse, uses violence against them. So, my reaction…instinctive urge rather was quite confusing to me. Even if I didn't act upon it, a possible (unreasonable!) explanation, to the till now strange behaviours of those women didn't sit really well with me.

Well however, some things do make sense now. Though I still (somewhat) strongly believe, (and now hope as well!) that I won’t tolerate being in a relationship with violent or abusive men. Of course, there are levels of violence/ abusiveness… so how much of it will get covered under the protective instincts of women, and beyond what level does it go to intolerable/ habit? I wonder…

I know my friend was just acting out of rage, and didn't harm anyone, and calmed down soon after. I'm not making excuses for him. Just that I found an opportunity to partly discover something new about myself and about humans in general. We sure are a strange, complex and interesting species!

Best Laid Plans

I have a swing in my veranda... a one seater, hanging by an iron link chain kinda swing... I bought it like 2 years ago. And it's been more than a year since I actually used it.
I work in a smaller town 25 kms from where I live. I'm away from home a good 13 hrs a day - and that's just the time between leaving home and returning, not taking into consideration the getting ready time and the like.
Today, I got home early after a meeting. 2 hours early! The climate was perfect... it was just about to rain. The thunder rumbled in the sky, lightning streaked. I had a book I had begun just this morning. So it seemed like the perfect combination... I had enough time to take a quick shower by the time the rain got really going, and I would be there for the jam session.
I even had the first few lines of that post written in my head, as I gleefully got set for my rainy day swing reading session. Even my sister wasn't expected home for the next hour. I got out, and quickly dug out the book from my bag and I all my leap over to the swing.
Obviously, from the build up to the finale, you guessed that my amazing plan didn't go through.
I go out, to see my grandma quietly swinging and watching the rain. Of course I didn't have the heart to ask her if I could use the swing for a while. She just looked so peaceful.
So I went back in, and watched some more Grey's Anatomy.


Over the last 6 months, I've made so many plans and I've seen them all tumble and fail terribly and miserably. Big plans & small plans. The saddest thing I saw, physically felt, fall was my passion for this job. When I joined, I felt like it was the dream job. It was exactly what I had wanted. Too perfectly... in a Korean company. So it just could not have gotten better. I loved it for all of one year. I learnt so much from one boss. He left. I learnt a lot, despite the next boss. And then it slowly rolled to a stop.

Till one day in February, I actually felt the emptiness in it all. The complacence ..and the giving up.
Business was down, politics was raging like wild fire and I felt like collateral damage. I didn't have much work to do. I could meet my monthly targets in 4 days work. I'd known that industrial set ups don't have much work many times for the HR department, but this was a crazy low. But I stuck on...The pay was good. And I decided if they want to pay me for nothing, I will let them.
Feeling worthless... especially when ALL of one's time is invested in that thing can only go on for so long.

I'm now at a cross road... it's time to decide how to get to my next destination...since I already know what that is.

I can see that talking about a wonderful but tiny plan failing...and then about the bigger plans in life. It;s just that over this year I have learned to accept and even expect the pitfalls in the best laid plans. Especially the best laid plans.
So I have to keep my back up plans ready and roaring! :)

As always,
Someday's Dreamer

10 day challenge : Day 9

2 smileys that describe my life right now

10 day challenge : Day 8

3 turn ons

1. Honest laughter that reach the eyes
2. Chivalry
3. Humour :)

Not giving the list of runner ups - that would be revealing too much here ;P

10 day challenge : Day 7

4 turn offs ....

Hmm... picking the top 4

1. Guys who talk like they know everything. Giving advice for everything. It's an instant turn off.
2. Swearing and using "di" ~ keep off dude
3. Distracted people who dont meet my eye, especially during a conversation
4. Men who order for me when I didn't ask them too

Other top contenders for the list were:
1. Bad breath, bad body odour
2. Wearing socks with holes
3. Eating with the mouth open
4. Dirty nails
5. Being late more than twice (and even worse, not apologizing for it)
6. Being totally unplanned and unorganized
7. Not giving reason for responses
8. Being too loud
9. Talking too much
10. Hurting me physically, even slightly, even as a joke

;P

10 day challenge : Day 6

5 people who mean a lot to me

This one's the easiest list of the lot :)

1. Daddy and my sister
2. My family beyond that
3. My 10 best friends
4. My colleagues past and present, who made and make my work life not just bearable, but fun!
5. God

I know you could say that it's cheating, and I got to give 5 names... but I can't ever pick between these 5. If I did, I'd have redefine myself in a mutilated way!

♥

10 day challenge : Day 5

6 things I wish I'd never done

(Again in no particular order)

1. That promise
2. A particular spree of texting one evening last July
3. Buying thay horrible Intel Xolo
4. Told someone how I felt way back in 2011
5. Told someone something in fruatration in Feb 2014
6. Said something in a certain way to my sister late 2012... I wish I'd atleast handled that conversation differently, a lot differently
7. Tried to be something Im not for a bunch of people who didnt care either way for almost 6 ~ 7 years of my life

I didn't realize I had so many things I regretted! ;P Ah well

10 day challenge : Day 4

7 things that cross my mind a lot ....(recently)

( In no particular order)

1. When will I ever finish Inheritance ( through 180 pages of the book)
2. Finding a new job..hopefully close to where I stay with a really good profile, decision making abilities and a better boss
3. When I will start something on my own
4. Losing weight
5. Wishing life had more variety and something fun happening
6. Will I turn 26 before my first k...
7. What this April holds in store

10 day challenge : Day 3

8 ways to steal my heart

8. Long walks without phones!
7. Dark chocolate ice cream
6. Have time for me
5. Make my dad like you ;)
4. Let me know how you feel, and find out how I feel
3. Surprises :)
2. Remember what I like
1. Make me laugh

10 day challenge: Day 2

9 things about myself :

1. I'm Taurean
2. I think too much
3. I'm not very good with groups of people. More comfortable with interacting with 1 or 2 people at a time
4. I like making stuff
5. I love the rain, and the beach is a close second
6. I like travelling alone and am more used to it
7. My first male love was Laurie from Little women, because he's sweet and makes evrryone laugh. I felt terrible about him not ending up with Jo.
8. I like taking photos because I have an itch to document as much as possible... lest I forget it. Thats part of the reason I write too.
9. I'm not really a complicated person. My motivators are very basic.

:)

10 day challenge : Day 1

Idea borrowed from Gitanjali Naidu, who blogs here : http://gitanjalinaidu.wordpress.com/ ;) Good thing too, as Ive been neglecting my poor blog for a bit and just reappeared a while back. I think this is gonna be fun, feel free to try it too :D

Ten things I want to tell 10 different people right now...Here goes!

1. Aj ~ How are you doing ?

2. Mmy ~ I'm feeling absolutely clueless this year. It feels like there is nothing to looking forward to. Will it get better?

3. Daddy ~ I'm sure I'll figure things out. Though I am at a rebellious phase, don't worry, the dust might settle soon ;) ( soon is a relative term though)

4. "I am sick of making comparison reports! Just use your brain and let me use mine!!!!"

5. Nman "We were such good friends... whatever happened?"

6. Bummer ~ Where in the world are you? I misseth you!

7. Pri ~ Relax babe, life is a crazy mess for all of us. Not just you.

8. Chingette 1 ~ Will you go away and forget all abt me ??? O.o

9. Chingette 2 ~ I miss those long detailed scientific discussions that we had!

10. Harper Collins ~ When exactly are you planning to publish my story ?!?!??!?!

And to Jef, Git, Chu , Mis, Sug , Nik and Nit (and of course nos.: 2, 3, 6, 7, 8 & 9)~ I may not say it enough, I might show it even lesser, but  I want you to know that I really really really love you ♥

Facts in fiction :)

A little about me

Read if you're bored or curious!

Or just paste the questions in your blogger, and start answering for yourself :)

1. Most comforting place, smell, sound and memory?

Place.... by the beach, the sunrise... or by a river...I guess in not so crowded places near large water bodies

Smell... milk and mum

Sound...rain

Memory....Hot chocolate, or was it cold? Heavy rain, sitting in 2 arm chairs in the verandah, having a long talk with mum about God knows what. 

2. Your ambitions as a child and your ambitions now

As a child: to become a truck driver

Now: To become a famous author, singer, poet, lyricist, travel blogger...photographer

3. Biggest fear

Dogs.

4. Qualities you would like in a partner (if you would like one)

Trustworthy, patient and a really good sense of humour

5. Traits you couldn’t put up with in a partner (if you would like one)

Lying and not giving importance to the relationship

6. What is the worst thing you have done to another person? (Let them down, lied, faked love etc)

Ignored someone. 

7. What are your worst traits and features?

Attention seeker. Dominant. Easily bored.

8. What are your best traits and features?

I don't give up on people I care about (It doesn't feel like the best thing right now, but I think/ hope it stays)

9. How would you explain your idea of ‘true love’?

Wanting to be anyone for that person. Being able to completely be yourself with that person. Someone you automatically think about first when something good or bad happens. Someone who's presence you can feel. Someone, who, you automatically look for in a crowd. Someone you miss even before they leave. Someone, who... just through memories makes you smile/ laugh/ cry.

10. The biggest mistake you’ve made.

A promise a very long time ago.

11. Are you rational or more emotional?

Emotional 70%

12. Do you think you’re very conscious of the feelings of others or more self oriented?

Self oriented..60%

13. Greatest achievement personally.

If I had already achieved it, life would have become boring

14. If you struggle to sleep at night, what do you do to try and soothe yourself to sleep?

Rewrite endings of stories 

15. What irritates you most about society?

Tolerance to dirt and messiness (mine included)

16. When you compliment someone, what do you tend to focus on? (Looks, intelligence, personality…)

Whatever stands out in that person. A compliment is about them :)

17. Think of your oldest friend. If you met them now do you think you would still become friends?

Without a doubt

18. Something you love to do, but feel guilty about after/during?

Eating out. Junk food. Texting some people. Whiling away time.

19. Would you like children in the future. If so why?

Mmmmm......  :)

50 little things

1.How many pets do you own? 

One. Rock. I think he might have died a while ago.

2. What’s your least favorite season? 

Winter, when it doesn't rain

3. Do you prefer to text or call? 

Depends on the person. 

I mostly just prefer face to face conversations

4. Morning or night?

Night. Midnight.

5. Do you like tacos?

Not so much.

6. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?

Ambi

7. What’s your favorite desert?

Fried ice cream

8. Do you enjoy walks?

Love it. :)

9. Are you a frequent user of Facebook?

Unfortunately, yes.

Do I post everything about my life? No

10. Do you watch animated shows still?

More than many people. A lot less than I used to.

11. Can you roll your tongue?

Yes.

12. What’s your “lucky” number?

23

13. Are you scared of anything?

Dogs. 

Not knowing why. 

Being walked away from.

14. Big mac or big whopper?

Big Whopper

15. Do you like to play board games?

A little too much :P

16. Are you fond of romantic novels?

I even write them sometimes :P

17. Fruitloops or cocopops?

Neither

18. Would you eat a live spider for one million dollars?

If it's small, bring it on baby!

19. Are you a heavy drinker?

Nah

I can hold my drink though ;)

20. Would you forgive someone for cheating?

I'm not sure.

I'm starting to wonder (be afraid) that I just might.

21. Are you superstitious?

Yeah....

22. Have you seen A Clockwork Orange?

No. Whazzit?

23. Do you like to read?

Yes .... its a need. Which has its seasons.

24. Are you easily distressed?

Nope.

But when I am :/

25. Do you believe in aliens?

Maybe.... other beings in other planets...hmmmm

26. If you were the last person alive besides one other person you get to chose, who would it be?

Logically, it makes sense for it to be a man right?

But I'd still pick my sister :)

27. Dogs or cats?

Neither

But if I HAVE to pick, cats.

28. Are you a grumpy person?

Nope

29. What’s something you hate?

Lies. Being left out of a secret.

30. Are you a worry wart?

A teensie little bit.

31. Do you like having your picture taken?

Sometimes, when I feel I look good :)

32. Do you like cotton candy?

When I'm in the mood for sweet stuff.

33. Would you ever use a dating site?

Don't think I'm the type.

Though I might try one out of curiosity.

34. Do you believe in ghosts?

No

35. Rap or pop?

Pop

36. What’s the weirdest flavor of ice cream you’ve tried?

Mint with something (*Shudder*)

37. Do you like math?

I like formulae.

38. Are you the type of person to laugh at others misfortune?

Yes, but I laugh at mine too.

39. Love or lust?

Love.

40. Do you remember lyrics easily? 

Of songs I like...or those that get stuck in my head.

41. What was/is your favorite school subject?  

Science.

I think I might have been a well hidden geek

42: Do you like tattoos? 

No

43. Are you the type of person to lie? 

Sometimes.... for work?

44. Do you eat porridge for breakfast? 

Ugh no

45. What music are you listening to right now?

Silence of the wind :) 

46. Are you allergic to anything?

Metal...dust... the some types of artificial wood in tables...

47. Do you like Lady Gaga? 

Just her speaking accent

48. What about Nick Minaj?

Who dat?.

49. Do you like rainy days? 

More than a bowl of ice cream :)

50. Last question, do you like pie?

Apple pie? Yesh ! ;)

Awesome Blogger & Liebster Blog Award – I’m tagged

I didn't know such fun things existed, but here we are! All thanks to my Rhapsodic friend who tagged me :)
So this is officially my first blogger award (as well) Yaayy! Thankoo Xana!

So here are the rules:

1.If you are tagged/nominated, you have to post 11 facts about yourself.

2.Then you answer the 11 questions the tagger has given you & make 11 questions for the people you are going to tag.

3. Tag 11 more Bloggers.

4. No tagging back.

5. Person you tag must have < 200 followers

The above bit is copy pasted from my friend's blog. Before we get to the more difficult task of finding 11 more fellow scape bloggers, lets get writing!

11 facts about myself. I'm sure this must be easy. But considering this is an anonymous blog (about me), this might be an interesting one.

1. I'm a girl in her early twenties
2. The first time you talk to me, I might come across as a very put together, mature person / or someone who looked totally like an outsider who makes no effor to fit in.
3. I'm actually not anyof that
4. I love food, and I am in a long standing battle with my weight
5. I have a drivers licence but I don't/ am not allowed to drive(This is more difficult than I thought it would be!)
6. I want to know everything about this man made world
7. I like watching more than being involved (Anything... a conversation, a fight :P )(Checks out friend's blog to get inspiration!)
8. I like long rides, drives, the sun rise, the beach, high places, wind, rain, thunder, lightning, lighthouses, big colourful flowers and stationery
9. I'm scared of all animals. (Except ants - the smaller ones, and I can kill cockroaches) Dogs are my ultimate fear, and they constitute most of my nightmares.
10. Smiling/ Laughter is my defence mechanism. I smile when I'm in a confrontational situation. I have smiled real sweetly many times when I was cursing someone inside.
11. I have magical powers. Honest! (I have witnesses!)

So that wraps it up! (But why 11 things anyway? Who came up with it? Why not 12?)

12. I question too many things

Now questions for me to answer - Like a mini interview, cool right?!

1. Blogging to me is_.

A method of finding my way back to sanity. My hideout. My recluse. My space where I am myself the most.

2. I recommend the following 3 blogs for you to read when you are free: _ , _ and _.

feelinit (A teenager's perspective of life), dramabeans (if you're into kdramas) and 1001 awesome things (If you just want to feel good)

3. 5 songs on my play list. (Losing inspiration here)

Just 5? Can we make it 10 pretty please? I don't want a few of my songs to feel left out you see...

1. Far away - Nickelback
2. I Remain - Alanis Morissette (Prince of Persia OST)
3. Sarangigayo - Howl (Goong OST)
4. Life is like a boat - Rie Fu
5. Maalai Neram - Andrea Jerenia & G.V.Prakash
6. No other - SuperJunior
7. Crush - David Archuletta
8. At the beginning - Donna Lewis and Richard Marx
9. Gravity - Maya Sakamoto
10. That Man/ That woman - Secret Garden OST

4. The last 5 books that I read were___.

Yikes! Does reader's digest count? :(

1. Psychopathology - A compilation (For my exam - tee hee_
2. Perhaps Love - Cathy J. Sarto
3. North and South - Elizabeth Gaskel
4. Eldest - Christopher Paolini
5. Insatiable - Erica Rivera

That wasn't all that bad

5. The one movie that made me cry__.

A walk to remember/ Kal Ho Na Ho [The latter was a bit more embarrassing as it was at the theatre :/]

6. Some day, I will _______.

Fly? Find the purpose of life? Ride the waters of Venice on a Gondola? Be the author of more that 15 bestsellers!!! Drive a car? ... be allowed to drive a car! 

Someday, I will know what I really want to do with my life, and who I really want to be.

7. Ten places i want to visit before- whatever.

Another list...hmm.....

1. Italy - All of it
2. London  (Go down daddy's memory lane)
3. Orange county, California
4. Surandai
5. The Alps, Germany
6. Seoul
7. ALL the palaces of this world
8. Disney land!!!
9. Backpacking in the U.S. of A
10. Finally....The top most tip of the Khalifa

(I thought this list will be the easiest, but is so so wasn't. Gosh I'm losing my touch)

8. The one person who made a HUGE impact on my life would be?

My dad

9. The last time I goofed something up __.

This morning?

10. New year resolutions for 2013?

Get a job, get my book published, get a boyfriend. (Not in any particular order :P )

11. (finally!) One secret that nobody knows :P

I'm an alien vampire. I hail from the distant planet Vampiritus.

[For all my other secrets, read the rest of my blog ;) ]

Phew! 

My turn to tag people now! Muhahahahahahahah

Jeff

Fellow Dreamer

Crossworder

Sugar Cube

Anonymous friend

PK

Dev

OT Dreamer

Mr. G
Kally

Since I could gather only 10, maybe the cycle can continue with 10? But I shall ask 11 questions as originally intended. Here you go!

1. Biggest achievement of 2012
2. Something you want to tell someone (With or without the name of that person)
3. If you could redo/ correct some past action in your life, which would it be, and how would you change it?
4. If you could time travel, when and where would you go?
5. Your favourite word is:
6. The most beautiful place you have ever been to?
7. The best food you've eaten (Where, when and how can we get access to it?)
8. Your pet peeve
9. Secret crazy hobby
10. If you could spend one day with ANYONE alive in this world right now, doing anything you like, who would it be?
11. Love is....?

Those are the questions. Get cracking and get tagging :)

Like she said, you guys rock!

Till later, ciao!

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