ok .. I was writing my record (in my dream, like I don't get enough of that in real life!!!G came around in a motorbike and gave me this chewing gum and said it'll help me ( before I slept, G really wanted to help me write record ) and drove away.
So I went upstairs, there were 2 ppl there who I knew lived with me ( dream knowledge)
2 girls. Another guy and girl had come to visit , Dunno who, just 2 ppl.
While up there I realized that there was a book which had come free with the chewing gum, so I left it on the bed upstairs and came back down to continue writing.
(Dream knowledge) They 4 were reading it, and it said something about u will realize something u had to if u eat the gum first then some brain.
The guy and girl come down and ask me for that gum, since I don't like gum too much
I gave it too them fully without a second thought.
I was too busy writing
They took the gum and left
then for a long time it was rather quiet
I went up to go see what was happening ...
There was blood all over the bed
and both of them were eating one brain each
( from the other 2 girls)
(I was in this semi existing state so they didn't know I was there)
Then they read again and realised it
they looked at each other and told 'em that it can't be
all that happens only in fiction
immortality can't be real
then full "realization " strikes them,
That they're 300 and odd years old
every 100 years or so
theie life time is elongated
By eating brain
Once they eat the gum and brain
The ppl whose brains they eat regrow brains
and they have part of these ppl's immortal brains in them
and from then on even they can have immortality if they followed the pattern
Then they flew out the window
or jumped out
thassit
What d'ya think ??

On my way !

Hey again !

I sound much brighter don't I ???? Hehe , ok , You probably think I'm approaching lunacy . Don't worry ! Guess what , I found my path too ! Now I'm just going to go right on and join the others, rushing a bit to catch up though ( that's why the adrenalin rush ! ) . The solution was right there all along . The phrase " sit back and realax" got a whole new meaning . maybe everything ain't alright , right now. But its definitely a whole lot more clearer !

Someone once told me that you're born twice, first is the day you enter the world , and second when you enter life after finding your purpose in it .

Later , a friend and I, we were trying to guess what the real purpose would be like . We didn't know ... but we were both sure that it would feel really good inside when we realize it.

I feel really good now too. I don't think I found my purpose yet. Ummm..... nope, not yet . But I think I'm on the right track definitely . Thats a big deal :P

Human beings are complicated creatures, they must be if they spend day in and day out complicating their lives more and more !

I hope that I don't get too complicated. Why such unrelated hopes you ask ? Well , it is related . I'm about to take one of the biggest step into my life, step properly into my adulthood. So this is the perfect time to hope that, right ?!

On that note, with loadsa other bright new hopes I finish for today :)

have fun y'all !!!

closed in

Have you ever felt like there's no way to from here .... like everyone has found their way, but u're just watching their back. I feel like that now. Something I thought would be a definite failure turned out ok. I wasn't ready for that . My SOP is getting nowhere. I feel like I'm in a transparent box alone on a wide wide open space. I can see everything out there ... get nowhere. Nothing makes much sense.
I think somewhere deep down, maybe not so deep down I feel that if I take a step forward, I'm walking away from a part of my past. A very important part. And I don't want to let go. Not yet ...not now...not ever.
My rational mind is telling me I have to move forward. So is everyone else. So loud I can't hear my own thoughts anymore. I want to go somewhere I can be alone. Just me. Or maybe not.
I don't know what I want anymore. What I wanted doesn't look like its of much use now.
I know what to do now ... but I don't want to do it. Or maybe I do .